One thing that I’ve learned in life, is that as time passes, your perspective on things – and people – changes drastically. In my case, I can now look back on the people who have caused me harm, and see the purpose they had to play in order for my life to be where it is now.
Where is my life now? Better than it ever has been. I’m a Dad, and things in my life seem to be going exactly the way I hoped and dreamed they someday could. A lot of my own fears about being a Dad were solidly met by realizing the incredible opportunity I have to be a Dad – and rising to the occasion of being the best one I know how to be.
Being a Dad has been a challenge in all of the ways I expected it would be. However, being a single Dad has been one of the most excruciating experiences I’ve had to deal with in my adult years. In many ways, it feels like learning how to juggle, while being expected to do so with one hand at the very same time.
A lot of people drop those balls. I chose not to, because I know there’s a little boy on the other end of any challenge I could face, and he’s worth it to me.
One of the things I love most about Atlas is also the thing that keeps me the most accountable; his curiosity. Atlas notices everything, and that includes his Dad. When we’re out in public, I’m conscious that I am the one setting an example for him to follow, and that feels like an incredible responsibility.
God truly gave me the greatest blessing in my life when he gave me a Son, who now looks to me as an example of how to live and be as a human.
When I stop to look at my life, I have to look back at all of the circumstances I’ve lived through as somehow being critical to the state where my life is currently at. There are a lot of things I wish could have gone differently…yet, if given the choice, I wouldn’t change a thing about the way things have unfolded.