I’m reading a lot more about the problem our society seems to have with the notion of young men growing up into established men. 27 year-old adolescents seem to be a prevalent part of our society. What makes me sick is not the fact that such non-men exist, but that the possibility of being one are well within reach. Talking with a good friend of mine, she asked why it was that she panicked before taking an important test. I responded that it is because we have to be aware that failure can overtake us in a moment, should we be so careless.
In that sense of the word, I feel it’s responsible to be stressed about failure. As I ponder the future months ahead, I begin to question and wonder what life will look like.
This blog has been written four times already. Direction has lost its footing. Prepare yourself.
Is it raining? Is it snowing?
Is a hurricane a-blowing?
Not a speck of light is showing,
So the danger must be growing.
Are the fires of Hell a-glowing?
Is the grisly reaper mowing?
Yes, the danger must be growing,
For the rowers keep on rowing,
And they’re certainly not showing,
Any signs that they are slowing!
Stop the boats.
Here we are. Mind torn as I ponder future decisions, present circumstances, and decisions that will have a strong ripple effect on the rest of my life, as well as for those whom I love dearly.
I’d like to take a moment to address a small issue I maintain with modern-day Christianity. Two verses stand out to me that have been drastically taken out of context, which are brought up frequently in the case of an argument or discrepancy.
1.) Love – 1 Cor. 13
2.) Turn The Other Cheek Matt 5:39
These verses are brought up to tame the modern-day christian to a point of docility and tameness that is a far cry from the responsibility….of not a Christian, but a human being. There are instances in our life where we must take a stand and have a spine for what we believe in. Turn the other cheek? Does this apply if a robber breaks into your house and proceeds to rape your wife? …your children? Is your blood boiling, yet? Good. Apply accordingly. Moving on.
No, I cannot move on. This topic must be explored further. “The meek shall inherit the earth” said Christ. However, I do not think he meant for us to be subservient citizens to all others around us. In fact, I think it is must harder to maintain a conquering spirit, while remaining humble and meek, than it is to simply lay spineless in this life. Christ also said to not worry about tomorrow, for it will take care of itself. However, I do not believe He thought all of us should stay in bed and wait for the world to beat its path to our door so we may step out of our house.
This is one of my biggest struggles in life; finding the line between being a motivated, driven individual who grabs life by the horns, makes things happen, and walks away from harsh failure with a smile and a good lesson learned, versus being an individual wholly surrendered to His will. I believe you can have both.
This blog just isn’t happening.