Sometimes we need a little reminder that we are stepping out of line. Other times, we dont’ want to face the reality of this, so we hide to ‘protect’ ourselves from facing the truth. Today was a day like this for me, as i was forced to come to terms that I could use a bit of a tune up, across all elements of life. I have been out of touch with certain people, short with others, and even a hint of cruel to a very rare few. Not to mention, I need to get things back on track with my Heavenly Father. Work has kept me quite occupied, almost so much that I’ve forgotten to seek first and focus purely on Him.
If it were possible, I’d take an extended vacation from life, retreating to the mountains and pursuing G-d for an extended period of time. However, that’s not possible, and I don’t believe it’s what we have been called to do. Instead, I believe we are to seek Him in the midst of our fights, so that we may achieve victory and ultimately give Him the glory. Little things have stressed me out, keeping me from doing even the most basic tasks of diligence. Time for a tune up, Plaat.
On the other hand, part of me realized just how tired I am of being a freelance worker for others. It’s time to grow out of this phase and pursue something with more consistency, that will actually grow towards something. It must have purpose. While I was in school, it was nice to be able to make a few thousand bucks, here and there, for doing relatively mindless work. However, it was tolerable then because I was doing something that required effort, and was of lasting value; pursuing my diploma. Now, it’s time to step it up a notch, finding something that will bring lasting value to myself and help define who I am as an individual.
Take a leap.