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Today is not an ordinary day. Yesterday marked the beginning of Rosh Hashanah (the Jewish New Year) and today marks my birthday. It’s to be expected that I would write a blog to commemorate the days. Normally, there’s a lot on my mind. Tonight, my mind is at peace and I feel clarity that everything that needs to happen will happen.

Last night, I decided to create a to-do list that I would complete prior to going to bed. It included all tasks that I had been putting off for the past few days, writing letters to several people, and taking time to reflect on the past year. I was up until the later hours of 4am, but the list was completed. I woke up a clean slate. A new year. Another year. Hello, twenty-four. Twenty four? Twenty-four.

Part of me had a difficult time welcoming this day, because I had many goals and ambitions set to accomplish before the age of 23. By the time I was 23, I had hoped to meet certain income, relationship, vehicular, and personal goals, along with certain other levels of success that I didn’t feel were met in the way I had hoped to meet them. This being said, for every disappointment I felt about this age, I have had multiple more blessings and experiences that I never could have hoped to have happened before this age.

While driving to Dallas, TX, I created a short video blog to encourage myself on days when things weren’t going my way. I recalled several of the things I’ve had the opportunity to experience, the places I’ve lived, and my remarkable ability to land on my feet from any height I’m thrown from. My conclusions was that I am, in fact, a pretty cool guy. Sometimes you need to remind yourself of just how cool of a person you really are.

So, it’s almost refreshing that all of my ‘goals’ were not met prior to this day. A good friend of mine passed along the saying “if you want to make G-d laugh, tell Him what you’re doing tomorrow.” and I agree wholeheartedly. In many ways, I had tried to tell Him what I wanted to happen, and even believed I could somehow orchestrate things that were not meant to be artificially spawned.

That being said, I have set my sights forward, my alarm clock backward, and the expectations for this year to a notch higher than what I thought possible. I believe this will be the year that I am able to reach new heights and accomplishments.

Growing up is actually much more enjoyable than many make it out to be. Yes, I no longer have the fun in ruining diapers, but I’m able to do a lot more things now that I’m growing up as a man than I was able to do as a child.

So, here’s to a successful and blessed year.

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